Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I can't focus

I can't seem to focus on anything right now. I go to see a surgical oncologist on Friday. Maybe he can give me some kind of peace of mind because right now I'm just going through the motions.

I don't like the CC aka blouse from Hell any better today. One reason I hate it is because it looks like a scrub top and scrub tops are so not my style. I tried to do some sewing today and had more disaster. I made mistakes I didn't even make when I first started sewing and that was 40 years ago. Just the burden of having cancer is getting to me. Physically I just feel like I coming down with a cold but mentally I can't concentrate or think of much else. I just want it to be over...not my cancer. I got way too much sewing that I want to do than to be thinking about "buying the farm." After all, I still don't have a thing to wear!

Taking a cue from Lisa H I decided to start a simple project that wouldn't work my last nerve...Vogue 1058. Right from the start it wasn't looking real good. At first I didn't think I had enough fabric but after a frantic search of my stash I found more. Of course I didn't realize that the fabric was only 45" wide so had to do a bit of creative pattern placement to get the top cut out. Threaded up the machine with the best matching thread and off I went. Why in the heck did I stitch the darts on the wrong side of the fabric, take them out and then stitch again on the wrong side of the fabric! I cut the wrong size and wound up having to take 2" off of the side seams. Stretched the armholes a little or they were just too big in the first place and after topstitching the neck, which I'm none to happy with the workmanship, I realize that I had better matching thread than I was using! On the bright side I think this will be my TNT tank top pattern.


  1. Ph! My friend I don't like what I'm hearing from you! I am praying that you oncologist has a better prognosis that you are imagining in your hear! I have a sister and several friends who have beat this. Of course, it isn't easy and it is easier for me, someone who hasn't personally gone through it. But, know that even though I don't know you in person, I know you. You are a strong person and you will get through this. My prayers are with you.

  2. I've wanted to make that pattern since the fall, but frankly I was a little timid about it. Please show your's when finish.

  3. Stay strong Girl, you are making yourself CRAZY! Make Pillows until you get your focus back, and stop waisting your good stash . We are with you :)

  4. I second Tracy, make pillows!

    By the way I'm still cracking up about your blouse from hell post... I know how it feels to get mad over a project that has it in for me.

    Still keeping you in my prayers :)I hope you get some good news from the oncologist

  5. The blouse from hell was just a speed bump, don't worry it's only fabric. I can relate though. Do anything that doesn't cause you frustration. Your are going to get through this and know you are in my prayers.

  6. Take a deep breath and breathe. It's only fabric. If you can't concentrate enough to sew, knit dishclothes. I can't imagine what you're going through, but I know the mind can do awful things. Praying the surgeon has good news for you. Remember you have cancer, it doesn't have you!!