I'm sick

If you'd seen me over that past few weeks, you'd have thought that I'd kick cancer in the rear and was on the high road. Well all that seems to have changed. Monday and Tuesday I felt pretty good. I was in my sewing room ready to create more great outfits. Wednesday at work I started not feeling so good. Started feeling really nauseous and shaky. Since Wednesday after work I've had to make sure I have a barf bag close at hand. I can't keep anything down. Even now I feel it coming on and nothing seems to stop it. I saw the surgeon today and he told me to stop taking the chemo medication and to take some Priolosec. The Priolosec seemed to work for a while but I think it's wearing off. I can't remember the last time I felt this bad. Have you ever felt so bad that you just want to cry? I'm there. I did sneak out to JoAnn's. If Calvin finds out he's going to freak out. I was supposed to be in bed. I picked up some McCalls patterns but as long as I continue to feel the way I do now, no more driving for me. The whole experience felt surreal and like an out of body experience. I feel like I've been drugged. First thing Monday morning I have got to call the chemo doctor because I can't function like this. Gotta go now and do more worshipping at the porcelain alter!